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闲话篇之胡言乱语

Hi,

Congratulation to hell.

Sorry, I didn't mean it, this is exactly what my classmate wrote to me when I told them I got the visa. In some sense it is true, for some people of course. It is often said that one man's meat is another man's poison. So one man's heaven may turn out to other man's hell similarly.

We all judge our outside world with our brain based on the data collected by our organ of sense. The primary organ of sense is our eyes and ears. However, we are watching the same world and listening to the same evironment, our brains may give completely different judgement. It all depends on yourselves to make judgement. All other people just supply you with some information which they regard importantly.

Therefore, I am not giving out my suggestions, but my experience for your reference only.

1. Don't expect too much and don't underestimate too much.

It is quite good to live in most of places if you have enough money. And it is not so easy to live in most of places on earth if you don't have too much money. For common immigrants, money is always in short. Many people just begin to balance their income and expense 6months after landing.

2. If you expect to do a similar job in Canada as you did in China. Try to think it is only an exception at first stage.

3. Try not to think that coming to a place is a victory or somewhat, try to think it is a new beginning.

4. You will forget the big difference of Canadian dollar and RMB sooner or later.

5. Buy a piece of warm clothes and a good pair of boots. However, you may find out after 2 years that it is all unnecessary since you can buy all them here in Canada.

6. Setup a life goal and evaluate it by the highest standard and the lowest one. After two years, recall this and test this. And do what you already decided two years ago.

7. Go often to visit website:

http://www3.sympatico.ca/qingzhehuang

to get some fun if you feel boring or what.

8. Do not believe in any of above except no. 7.

9. Do trust all above except no. 8.

10. It is your choice to believe or not any of these bullshit.

跟你开个玩笑， 别介意。

nick

Nick Huang

hi,

As long as I know,

1. your finacee cannot go along with you now as you have to apply for family re-union which may last for half year to one year. Actually when I stayed in Toronto last year, my roommate is a guy from Beijing. And his wife is waiting for this family re-union for more than half year in Beijing. Even after almost half year when I left Toronto, I asked him when chatting, it seems her admission is not approved. So, I guess that in some cases it may last for nearly one year though by regulation it should be within half year before. But who knows what will happen after 911.

2. It always depends on deciding which city is better when you compare Toronto and Montreal. Some people said that if you are rich, stay in Vancouver, if you have some money, stay in Toronto, if you are poor, go to Montreal. It gives you some hints. It is said that in Toronto chinese can find some place to work if you are lucky or you have some talent. If you want to study in school , maybe Montreal is better as you can get some bursary from Quebec government. You know, in Toronto if you don't work it is meaningless to stay there. However, if you are determined to try to find a job, stay there is a better solution.

3. So, in all word it all depends on what you want to do here and what you can do here. And all answer should be discovered by yourself. As it is said in film "Matrix": there is a big difference between knowing the path and really walking through it.

have a nice day.

nick

I was shocked to see the real poverty in Canada

Today I came back from my first farm work in Canada and I swear never, ever to go to again. For many years of travelling in

China, I thought my heart has been hardened enough to endure the sight of misery of miserable people. However, it turns out

to be not the case. I was shocked to see the real miserable life side of Canada. It is not those co-called artists who play for

coins in Metro, many of them simply enjoy the life style and feel proud of it. comparing with 12 hours in hot sun burning

in onion fields, it means nothing but leisure. People in farm struggle for all their strength to earn one cup of orange juice by

picking up 3600 pieces of onions in fields, in dust, desperately.

My pilgrimage starts here...

hi,

Your words did touch some nature of mine!
No matter how I explain to myself that this web site is helpful to me, indeed there is some percentage of showing off or as you said "promoting myself"? Life is lonely here especially at the bottom of a man's heart. In the coldest evening of snowing days, the only thing you can do is playing PC games in the small cellroom. Can you imagine the chilling winter here?
However, the web indeed has its value:
1. First of all, I need an independent storage space. My laptop is not trustworthy because I don't know when it will stop working and then it is a disastrous for all my job. Putting it on web is a best way to keep those files, programs, assignments, ideas etc.
2. The other reason is for a version problem. As you know, many of my program involves several editions. The evolution of versions sometimes is like the evolution of an idea. At first you can only solve the problem to this extent, and maybe in future you suddenly understand that you can do it the other way. Or more probably when you try to improve it in another way and then realized that you are totally wrong and the old way is in fact the correct way. This looks like a mess and I need to keep all files as it is so that in future I can return to find out what it originally looks like.
3. It is easy to access my webpage nowadays from internet almost everywhere. I may upload my project in home and debug the program in lab in school. Or more often I simply send the link of the program to my classmates or professors instead of sending the program files itself which is of course much bigger than the link.
4. My memory is losing faster than I can ever imagine. As I mentioned in my diary, I always think that our memory is selective as we select those happy scenes to remember, then our life seems to be happy. On the contrary, when we choose to remember those sad days, our life seemingly becomes a sad story. So, memory is not trustful anymore. The only solution is to write down and store them somewhere. Today the electronic storage technology seems to be the best choice.
5. I always live in dream. As I take a subway to school, the noise of train makes me feel riding on my favourite horse and having my dreaming trip. As I enter campus, the coming and going of various students makes me feel as if I am taking my ship, sailing on waving oceans. Since I imagine my life is a pilgrimage to the unknown future, I do need a shipping log to record everything I encounter in my journey. It helps me to fill up those empty days and nights in this pilgrimage.
6. It is said that our life should be like this: When we recall the past days, we should not feel regretful and shameful for passing without doing anything significant. Then we can say we did devote all our lives and energy to the greatest thing in this world. The question is how can we be sure about that? Since our memory is always trying to cheat ourselves. How can I trust my memory that I am not passing without doing any meaningful job? I need a witness and the only reliable witness is myself because it is only myself who knows what I am doing everyday. The evidence should be kept in files for future inspection.
7. I was always deeply impressed when I watch those autobiographies of those great ones in our world. The documentary TV program reveals the evolutions of ideas and personalities. The more material they show you, the more convincing that these great people are indeed wonderful in their jobs. I don't expect others to be able to watch a documentary film of myself. At least watching by myself is enough to amuse me. One audience is enough.
Have a nice day before you get bored by me.
Nick Huang/Qingzhe Huang

8. One more thing about all what I wrote down is that it is quite possible that these stuff would somehow, someday become materials uncovered by an archeologist in farthest future. And this archeologist in my imagination is actually a huge computer program who is assigned to discover the evolution history of human in 20th and 21st centuries. Maybe he or it is so lucky that at some moment his searching would reach a long-abandoned server in which all my stuffs have been stored for centuries. At that very moment, he may be so happy to see that a humble computer-science student imagined that event as early as beginning of 21st century.

# 这位兄台好心情啊

我个人的看法是，在5-10，也许20年内，北美可能不会再有所谓的应用软件的程序员开发了，至多是一部分维护性的工作。唯有系统程序员还可以生存，或者是纯学术的研究了。
理由很简单，现在电信技术使得程序员可以在任何地方编程，资本家没有必要用10到20倍的工资在北美搞任何大规模的简单重复劳动，只有不可替代的，或不愿外包的核心部分还能生存。
所以，我想不用找什么工作，因为一定会被layoff，除非这个工作需要你，你不一定要去找他。那种投资几千块钱，学三两个月可以速成的时代已经一去不复返了。

--------问题是俺们已经花了几万几年了 。。。。。。。

IT行业从来就是这样，小到个人，大到跨国公司，高投入，高产出，高风险。没有人在乎你投资了多少，你的产品，（也就是你自己）有没有人要完全取决于市场需求。

关于学英语的体会。。。

你好，
谢谢你的抬举，我实际上是一个平常人，正如我自己描述自己的那样是一个希望能看起来不平常的平常人，因为这个愿望非常的平常。（I am a common man with a common wish to want to look like uncommon which is totally common.)
不过关于学习英语我倒是可以谈谈我的一些想法，一方面，我大学原本就算是英语专业的，另一方面，我在学英语上当时也着实花了不少力气，也许能够供你参考。
1。我始终认为学习之前一个人必须确定明确几件事：a)目的;b)条件；c)方法;d)检验；
先说目的，如果你没有明确的目标，你既不会有持久的动力，也谈不上日后检验的方法，所以我觉得这个市最重要的。你必须知道你为什么要学，是仅仅能够看看通俗英文小说消遣，还是实际工作中会用到，我以为学以致用至为重要，如果你学的一样技能没有施展的地方，就图同屠龙术，既没有用也浪费了以个人的精力和时间。
其次是条件，这里有个人条件也有客观条件，比如你学语言的能力，你的记忆力，你的逻辑思维力，你的知识修养，你的工作时间，你的个人兴趣等等，甚至可以说你的种种条件又反过来决定了你的目的。我曾经看到过一篇报道说北大食堂又一个卖馒头的师傅学习英语考托福考了很高，这对于激励很多人学习是一件好事，可是从另一个角度来看，假如这个师傅除了有意愿上大学或者检验证实自己的人生价值以外，完全没有必要学外语，在国内学英语假如你不用的话，学来干什么？所以，一定是你的周围条件决定你的学习目的，同时也决定你的学习方法，和检验方法。
方法，做任何事情都会有方法，方法和条件是紧密相联系的，一定的条件决定了你的方法。比如读大学的时候，我那个专业算是英语专业吧，英语是主课，同时我那个时候的记忆力特别强，所以，我经常全身心地阅读，听广播，磁带，参加英语角等等。如果要求一个理工科的学生也这样学习我觉得就是完全的本末倒置了，听说现在国内有的大学就是这样，学理工的学起英语来比英语专业还卖力，这个现象我是持反对态度的。要看条件和目的来决定方法。
检验为什么重要？因为学习过程是一个摸索与调整的过程，如果没有检验你不可能明白你的目的是否达到，这样你无法确定你的方法是否正确，你的条件是否满足，学习的动力不会得到保持与补充，学习的方法得不到验证与调整，最终会陷入混沌之中。检验可以有很多种形式，比如，有的人以考试成绩来看，有的人已达到一定的阅读水平来看等等。
2。 讲了这么多，你一定会觉得我说了无数的废话空话大话，如果不讲一点具体的方法，也真辜负你耐心读到这里了。我大学的时候看过一个日本人写的小册子叫做《速读学英语》，讲的是作者的切身体会，就是英语的真正功底不是词汇，不是语法，而是听力和阅读，而其中听力是由阅读来决定的，为什么这么说？假如你慢慢地的一个字一个子读的话，都不太明白很难想象你会听明白，我这里有两个前提，一，你不是英语为母语的环境长大的，因为那些人不一定会读，可是会停；二，你不是看电视电影的听，那种场景有语言之外的信息。我说的听是纯粹的磁带语广播，这种情况下你几乎要完全依赖你的语感。什么是语感？说白了是一种条件反射，是一种举一反三触类旁通的类似的联想力，你听到A就能预见到B，而不是一个字一个字都要听得清清楚楚的机器似的翻译。现在回想起来国内的英语教学简直就是在教编译器学习英语，把所有的词汇让你先掌握，把所有的语法让你严格认真学习，让你一个字一个字的听得清清楚楚然后向机器一样的准确翻译，这不是计算机学语言是什么？我不是说不好，而是说这样不现实，也是对人的最大浪费。你在阅读的时候，如果对内容有着强烈的探索欲望，真切地想要知道其中的内容，你会忽略很多不重要的生词，连蒙带猜地跳过一些不影响大局的细节，不会一个字一个字的查字典，你的思路不会被打断，你的大脑的处理速度不会因为阅读的是外语而放慢思维，你的头脑中的语速会和实际的速度保持一致，这样你的所谓语感才能培养起来，也只有这样大量的阅读，你的思维逻辑才能得到锻炼，你的词汇量才能扩大，你也才能接触更多的语法现象。这种方法我认为是专业英语学习的必由之路。
3。目的决定方法，目的决定检验，条件决定目的，目的改变条件，检验调整方法，方法实现目的。我现在回想过去非常不愿意鼓励一个人把大量的时间和精力放在无用的技能学习上，比如我，我认为我学习语言不是长处，枉费了大量的时间事半功倍，不过英语对于我是必需的，所以没有办法，算来学习的时间可能都不下十几，二十年，至今也还是不算非常好，实在是不值得。如果你不是必需，不要过多的浪费精力来学一门语言，够用就好了。
今天暂且谈到着，欢迎你的意见。

Don't you think Chinese students are actually cheating by assuming they are qualified for studying in English-speaking universities?

Actually it is not that kind of intensive English course you imagined. It is rather kind of fundamental English writing course. When I say "fundamental", I mean it is just aimed to improve your basic English writing skills to be able to be qualified as an undergraduate student in an English speaking university. However, it is not as easy as most Chinese student thought it would be. As a matter of fact, English-teaching in both universites and middle schools in China is completely wrong! Sometimes, I even attribute this kind of stupid teaching methods and goals to "compiler-like" English-learning procedure. In case you don't understand the term of "compiler" which I think pretty much natural for a commerce student, compiler is a special program to help computer to understand human being. It works like this way: people write so-called high-level programming language like C/C++, Visual Basic, Pascal, Java etc and by help of compiler, computer can understand what people want it to do. Since computer only understand 0 and 1, it is the responsibility of compiler to translate human-understandable language into binary code or 0/1's. So, you now know the role of a compiler which is essentially a translater. However, this translator is quite different from a human translator who can interpreter different languages who is spoken by different people. Compiler is so strict and stubborn that it won't proceed whenever you make whatever small mistakes in spelling or grammar. In other words, it won't torlerate slightest ambibuiguity or mistakes. You can imagine if a human interpreter repeated interrupts you whenever you make a grammar mistake or pronounication error, the conversation is very difficult to continue.
So, in this sense I personally object the way of English-teaching in China because language-learning procedure is a procedure involved with human. It makes no sense to transfer students into a machine.
Ok, it seems I distract our topic far far away from original one. Let's go back to topic of Concordia English teaching. It more concentrated those subjects neglected particularly by English-teaching in China such as punctuation, spelling with special terms etc. Of course writing with logic is the most important part of teaching since it assumes you already have a solid foundation of English grammar. For example, it teaches you how to read between lines and arrange your arguments in a consistent theme. The major goal is to train you to write a well-organized paragraph plus some minor issues like how to write dialogues etc. The strategy they emporsized is more thinking logic than English language. For example, when you try to convince your reader, what possible arguing methods you can apply? How do you use comparison and classification? The course is not so trivial if you really accomplish what you are supposed to. And one simple clue to this is that usually no student can get A or A- no matter if English is your first language or second language. Of course the reason for those whose first language or first 1.5 language(in case those who speaks both French and English here in Quebec) is English register in this kind of English course is because his/her English is comparatively poorer than his/her peers. However they usually have no difficulty in oral English speaking. So you can imagine these kind of courses are quite strict in grading.
I think one should benefit a lot by taking English courses, especially for most Chinese students. Yesterday I watched an old movie by Arnold Schowasingal, <Kindergarden Cops>. Those kids in the movie are just 5 or 6 years old and can speak much better English than many of college students in China. Just imagine they still need more than ten years English training to be able to study in university. Does it suggest you that Chinese students are actually cheating by assuming they are qualified for studying in English-speaking-university in sense of language?
Nice to talk with you and I hope you are not upset by my boring, long gossiping.
Nick Huang/Qingzhe Huang

Trouble in Asia

Hi Professor,
Generally speaking, I agree with your view points that young generation of Japanese should not feel guilty for war crime when they were not born yet. Actually it is described in media that currently in Japan people are getting fed up with seemingly-endless pressure for appology. They become more and more impatient about gabbling of their neighbours. As a chinese I am willing to analysis rationally what is going on in mind of most chinese people.
1. The wake-up of new generation:
Unlike their parents, new generation in China now suffer the least and have the luxury to be proud of their history. However, defeating in war is always a shame and sore. You see, before WWII Japan is the only developed country in Asia. Now it is still the ONLY one in Asia. It is quite difficult to accept the reality that Japanese are superior to Chinese in mondern industrial age. People tend to attribute this to the fact that China has dropped the claim for what is lost during war. This is the common sense for society and few of them realize the real reason of development of Japan.
2. The fear of powerful Japan:
Before WWII, Japan is so strong and China is so weak. Today it seems little is changed. Although China regards itself as a powerful country. Yet in veiw of military, the enormous Japanese defence budget can easily re-arm Japanese army. In fact, Japanese navy and air force currently is No. 1 in Asia already. A powerful Japanese is always a potential threat to China. People in China simply don't accept the fact that Japan never admit it was defeated by China in WWII. It is USA and Soviet Union who destroyed Japan navy in Pacific and most of army in North-East of China respectively. As far as I know, during eight-year-long so-called Anti-Japanese war, China army only destroyed a little more than 1/3 of Japanese army, almost same as what Red Army from Soviet did within less than three months.
3. The fear of new economic-colony:
People in china today get a wrong impression that China is becoming stronger and stronger. However, in my personal view, China now becomes the economic-colony of global incorporations, including many of Japanese corporates. The most manpower-intensive, natural-resource-consuming, polusion-intensive manufacturing enterprises are established in China to exhaust the already exhausted natural resource in a simple reason to feed its enormous population, without any choice for consideration of more than two generations. That is big picture of China today. People have to accept the fact that they are again becoming economic slaves for Japan who now conquered China by automobile and electronic appliances. How come is the student superior to his teacher in the sense that most culture of Japan is "imported" from China 1000 years ago?
4. The fear of incoming militery conflict:
More and more people tend to be impatient with re-union of China after Hongkong is returned. However, Taiwanese are reluctant to become one province of China, at least the leader of Taiwan doesn't want to. And Japanese and Americans don't want to. The seemingly imminent war conflict is regarded between China and Japan because any military conflict between USA and China is regarded as beginning of World War III. No one in world dare to test this theory. Therefore Japan as an agent of USA in Asia takes responsibility to maintain the peace order of Asia. Should Chinese leaders show their resolved mind to Japan as a warning of possible interference during liberation of Taiwan? It is necessary and beneficial to all sides. Even sheep should show his teeth to a wolf before the fight.
5. The unstable society:
China is becoming a more and more unstable society with more and more problems arising from every corner of society. People simply want to outlet their anxiety by someway, somehow. Anti-Japanese is the safest start since it is regarded as patrioism and would be protected by government. However, nobody can predict when new flavour would be added into protests. In 89, same pattern was already showed. I never worries about so-called nationalism because it is like a burning match which cannot last for three minutes before people have to think how to survive in this society. Patrioism is a kind of luxury in China which force you either to choose it as an occupation or as a hobby. However, professional revolutionist has no way of survival in China today unless you join Communist Party who stops revolutionary long time ago. Therefore patrioism as a hobby can be only played as a game during spare time, say during holiday.
I have been long regarded by my patriots as Anti-China-ism. However, I would be happy if you distribute the above to more of your students since I am willing to let more people to re-think what they take for granted.
Nick Huang/Qingzhe Huang
我的征尘是星辰大海。。。(Chinese)
http://www.staroceans.com/
The dirt and dust from my pilgrimage become oceans of stars...(English)
http://www.staroceans.com/english.htm

> Dear Former Students and Friends,

> We have all read the newspaper or heard or seen the news from China. I am sending this e-mail to you because I have something to say about it. I know the history of China, Korea and Japan well enough to know that some things are not discussed in Japanese schoolbooks. That decision is made by senior administrators in Government. What happened in Taiwan, in Korea and in 1931 and later in China were decisions made by military commanders and by senior government officials. To be in that position at that time, one would have to have been 30 or more years old. Nearly all those men are now dead or well over 90 years old, and toothless tigers who have nothing but bad memories to keep them warm at night.

> Your Japanese friends are 3 generations removed from that history. They have no resposibility for what happened. Their hands are clean. In times of war terrible things happen. If you are non-Japanese, you may be angry at those old and dead military men, or those old and dead government men, or even the now dead Emperor Hirohito. You may even be mad at the current government of Japan, which is also filled with old men. But YOU CANNOT BE ANGRY AT YOUR FRIENDS AND OTHER JAPANESE YOUNG MEN AND WOMEN WHO HAVE HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH PAST GOVERNMENTS OR PRESENT GOVERNMENTS. IF YOU ARE JAPANESE, YOU NEED FEEL NO PERSONAL SHAME. YOU ARE BLAMELESS. You have done nothing to be ashamed of, ESPECIALLY YOU NEED NOT BE ASHAMED OF BEING jAPANESE FOR THAT COUNTRY, LIKE MY COUNTRY ENGLAND, HAS A LONG AND GLORIOUS HISTORY OF ACCOMPLISHMENT. And yet, England, as a country, has blood on its hands. Think of the Opium wars. Think of slavery. But I didn't import opium to China and I didn't go to Africa to capture slaves for my sugar plantations in the Carribean.

> My father was Jewish. If I count all my close relatives, then I can tell you that 31 of them were killed in concentration camps by the NAZI government. Only my father survived. I can hate the NAZI government, or Hitler and all the death camp commanders who personally killed my grandparents, my aunts and uncles, and all my cousins. But I do not hate the Germans. Infact I married one and, until recently, had a young German woman living in my house. What have these people to do with death camps? Nothing. How far will you go back in history to find something to hate someone for? Maybe I should hate the Italians because a Roman soldier cut the head off an Englishman 2000 years ago.

> The Chinese government is allowing these demonstrations to take place because they are angry that Japan may be given a seat at the United Nations Security Council. All Governments act only in their own self-interest. But people who are not ignorant, who are educated have to rise above the pragmatism of government policy. We are all just human beings. We all bleed when we are cut; we all cry out for food when we are hungry.

> Please do not allow yourselves to be swept up in hysterical action that targets the innocent. If you are here in Canada, reach out to your friends and tell them that you care about them. Tell them that no one can change the past, but that we all have the power to change the future.

> I have not sent this e-mail to everyone I know. You all have contact lists. I would really appreciate it if you would send this e-mail to as many people as you can.

> I have met so many wonderful people from Asia. I am so lucky that I now have friends in The Middle Kingdom, Japan, Taiwan, Korea, Vietnam, Cambodia, Thailand, Singapore, Laos, Miyanmar, Indonesia, Phillipines, etc., etc., etc. Some friends are closer to me than others, but not because they come from here or there. No, because I take each person as just a person whom I can like or dislike because of WHO they are, not WHAT they are.

> Peter Feder, Concordia University.

谢谢你的恭维，实际上我是一个普通的凡人，大家谁也不比谁强多少，只不过我有时候愿意把自己想的写下来而已，如果每个人都这么做的话，他应该也时时地发现闪光的地方。关于学英语这个老话题，我觉得远比国内很多人想象的难得多，这里是我以前的一点体会（http://www.staroceans.com/newComer.htm#english），这个学期我被迫修一门英语写作结果唯一的想法就是怎么考试能够及格，也就是说最高要求就是C-，想想看班级上80%的都是English-speaking的学生，大多是文科专业，比如文学，语言，再差也是business，写作的时候想要模仿他们的立意，修辞，结果语法错误一箩筐，注意了语法结果又没了主题，看来我今天也还只是当地普通初中生的水平，连基本summary都写不好不要说议论文，记叙文了。国内的情况给我的感觉确实好像拼命地学什么GRE,TOEFL，这些东西仅仅能够让你勉强应付最初级的交流，讲到写作还差得远呢，不过就如我说的，学习终归要应用，因此你必须问问你自己为什么要学，学了以后干什么用，并且明白要怎么用，这样你才知道你是否应该学，怎么检验，也就明白要学到什么程度了。对于我来说英语学习当然是永远的话题，不过作为工科学生，我也只求报告写的语法通顺，主题明确，层次分明而已，其他的都是可望而不可及的了。

X:

可我依然羡慕和佩服你,因为你是移民
要知道,我的好几个雅思班的朋友已经考了二三次
还是不够分,看他们沮丧的样子,我的自信全没了
最起码你可以在最少两个国家穿梭寻找真的自己
而我们想出国只能依靠旅行社,虽然手上有护照.
怎么样,听到别人还有这样的烦恼,而且解决不了
你是不是感觉好一点?

Nick:

谢谢你的安慰，让我想起很早以前的一首歌，大概叫做“我想去桂林”，歌词的意思是当我想去桂林的时候我没有钱，当我有钱的时候，我没有时间，当我有时间的时候，我已经老得不想再去了，总之，我没有去成桂林。
我现在也许可以来去自由了，但是来去自由的机票我却买不起了，自由是有价格的。
大多数来这里的移民男女中，女人一般都有留在这里的理由，男人一般都有离开这里的原因，如果，生活中能有一种想去桂林而一直为之努力的希望甚至好过希望真正来临的时候面对现实的每一个侧面。
希望没有打消你的勇气。

Nick:

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I have to thank you for your complement and it is not uncommon for some people to comment like that. However, I know myself clearly. Let me put it this way. I am just a common man with common wish to try to look like uncommon from other common people which is not uncommon at all. What else should I say? Most people do have sparkling ideas from time to time. Either they don't bother to write it down and let others know or they don't have time and don't realize it is marvellous idea. Internet changes people's life style dramatically and continues to do this for unforeseeable period. I can foresee there will be many unforeseeable events emerging from foreseeable future in a unforeseeable style to change our foreseeable and unforeseeable life style. (Forgive me, I keep watching "Yes, prime minister" and try to learn the way British civil servants talk.)

Apart from all, I consider myself a kind of escapist who tries to escape from all my duty and responsibility in this society, especially in society of China today. And that is one fundamental reason for me to leave that country because I feel I was a kind of alien in that country. You see, I hate kids and pets and don't want to feed people other than myself, even for my family. Suppose I get married with whoever might be, the last thing I want to do is to sacrifice myself to give thing which common woman expects to get. Hence, I highly suspect there would exist any female sex such that she is willing to accept such a family life. Marriage, in my personal view, is a kind of exchange for social resources. Men expect some kind of authority, comfortable life at home. Women expect to have more social resources for them to give birth of next generation which is their only purpose of existence in their life. (This has been proved by Darwin's evolution theory. For example, those female sex who don't want to give birth or is incompetent to do so, will not convey their gene to next generation. And the survival generation are all from those female sex who view reproduction as their sole purpose of life. Hence it is proved the survival female sex should continue this because their gene decides so.)

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<The Matrix>

Neo: I can't go back, can I?

Morpheus: No, but if you can, will you?